This what this song means to me

The Cranberries - Zombie

Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken.
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me, it's not my family.
In your head, in your head they are fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are crying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, dou, dou, dou, dou, dou...

Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over.
When the vi'lence causes silence,
We must be mistaken.

It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen.
In your head, in your head they're still fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are dying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, hey, oh, ya, ya-a..

This song is talking about violence that keeps going on and on, and it breaks hearts , one thing that is going on right now is my Aunt and Uncle are getting a divorce. My Aunt Brenda and my Uncle Rusty have have fought and fought , and it just breaks my heart. But, this is not the only thing that breaks my heart , there has been chaos on ever side of my family and I sometimes feel torn in the middle.When my uncle and my grandmother were alive on my moms side of the family none of this would ever be the case, on my moms side of the family , my uncle Carl,and my grandmother would not put up with it.But, on my god mothers side of the family family feuds have been going on for so long, now I know that I don't have to put up with my godmothers family near like I used to.Everything is fully in god hands, because He is the only on that can handle and deal with the situation, the song zombie is all to real to me I relate to that song because, the way the feuds go on it is like they are all zombies feuding among one another.This is why I write this blog post today, around the holidays it really gets to me , I would love nothing more than to go be around my family and have peace, and not have in the back of my mind as soon as this is over they are gonna be right back where they were, or hear them even at the diner table pick and put another down. I got a invite to thanksgiving diner at my mom Aunt and uncles house, and my cousin's house I would love to go, but I don't one my cousin tries to put me down , I get made fun of and it breaks my mom's heart and it breaks my heart. Holidays are sometimes really ruff for me. But, God gave me another family that I love with all my heart and they love me for me , my family is The Ring community Church , I love them so much and my heart smiles every Sunday when I get to church around 4 or 4:30 , and I have my little angles Addy, Jack, Parker, Trace, Dustin, and Dale run up and give me this huge hug!!