joys in times of hardship and suffering

Two character in the bible I love are Job and Paul ,Job never cursed God not one time, Job had everything taken away from him , and what did he do he fell down and worshiped the Lord,Paul was put in prison for preaching the gospel and he found joy in his suffer for the cause of Christ. I wish that every time i went through something that I found joy in it, but sometime i don't because sometimes my heart just breaks. Now god has given me some amazing gifts gauchers disease, glacoma, and I had back surgery when i was 11 because one i do not have a spleen the gauchers diease enlarged my spleen and I had to have it removed and the gauchers went to my bones. Now i have been on enzime replacement since 1992 and i am healthy my bones are healthy. another part of the gift is when i go to get my infusions seeing other grab on to hope and faith of Jesus Christ, i have seen young children go through far more than i do and have such joy on there faces, and I see adults go through stuff far more than i can amagine and still have a joy , a joy to be alive. I love it that I wake up every day and through the power of Christ i kick gaucher, and glaucoma's rear end, but but what breaks my heart is the emotional scars in my life for me that is a million time harder to fight that anything fisical, and it starts to hurt my heart fisicaly as well.But i know Christ is there every step of the way , he says in psalms 23 that enven though we go through the valley of shadow and death fear no evil for he is with us his rod and his staff comfort us.